I deserve the best…and so do you

I was walking home from dropping my boys off at their bus stop to go to school. With no one around to be strong for, the tears started flowing. Interestingly, the tears really let go from behind the dam (damn) that I’ve had them blocked behind all week when I passed a spiritual yoga center. Maybe the energy from this sacred place was telling me to let it all go?

As the tears flowed behind my large black Jackie O-esque glasses it came to me that I deserve the best. I’m worried about money. Lots of us are. How to pay the rent, how to pay my cell phone (and only phone) how to buy groceries, have largely overwhelmed my mind the last few weeks. Man, I wish those days were back where I lusted after my $2,000 Prada bag and $995 Christian Loubatin shoes! Now I just want to be able to pay my rent and buy a couple of chicken breasts for dinner.

Back to the point. The more the tears came, the more I realized I deserved the best. I deserve to have plenty of money (or as my oldest son says: “lot and lot of money”!). I deserve to send my children to the private school they once attended. I deserve to buy a $3.75 chocolate croissant without feeling guilty (which I do). I deserve to have a loving, faithful, beautiful man in my life. I deserve, I deserve, I deserve!

We as people, especially women, don’t feel that we deserve the best. We may believe it is selfish to want what we want. I’ve always shied away from the belief that I deserve more than what I already have. Why? Because I believed that since there are those that are worse off, I shouldn’t complain or want more. Well, as the tears flowed behind my cool shades, I made up my mind that I deserve whatever I want! Whatever. With no guilt, no shame, no judgement. Prada bag? I deserve it! $20 takeout? I deserve it? Awesome man who opens car doors for me and contacts me everyday to say hi? I deserve it! Light blue convertible Bentley with cream leather interior? Oh, yeah, I SOOO deserve it! (especially after taking public transportation for over 2 years!)

And baby, so do you…you deserve WHATEVER it is that will make you happier, safer, calmer. You do.

Leave in the comments what you deserve. Have no fear of judgement of what I or others will say. What do you deserve? Electric bill paid in full? Villa in Italy next to George Clooney? A massage? A glass of wine? A cookie? A hug?

Brothers and sister, get to feeling worthy…and deserving. I’m outta here. I deserve a nap!

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